Tonight I thought my life might be over. \u00a0It was a brief moment in time. \u00a0I am trying not to be a drama queen but Henry is my reason for going on and living with the excruciating pain of losing Hayley. \u00a0I had just said to Scott, Henry is out, I am owning the fact we are not going anywhere and getting my pjs on. \u00a0I sat back down at 5:34 with my penguin jammies on. \u00a0I looked at my text and Verizon had text me at 5:28 to tell me that Henry’s phone had called 911. \u00a0I looked at Scott and asked him to track Henry’s phone. \u00a0It was in Redmond and not moving. \u00a0His phone went right to voicemail. \u00a0He had been in an accident. \u00a0I was upstairs getting dressed before Scott even talked to Henry. \u00a0I planned to go to exactly where his phone was. \u00a0I told myself he was okay because he had dialed 911. \u00a0The voice said well someone else may have used his phone to call because he couldn’t. \u00a0I saw the look on Scott’s face when he got Henry on the phone, I was already getting my shoes on and putting Finn in the kennel, turn the oven off and waiting for Scott in the car. \u00a0I had backed down to get it pointing heading out taking out one of the garbage cans Henry had not brought up when I asked. \u00a0So when Scott said he would drive I quickly relinquished the wheel. \u00a0On the way there Scott admitted that he had been imagining something happening to Henry because of the Hayley anniversaries looming. \u00a0Like it was time for something else bad to happen. \u00a0I felt less alone. \u00a0I was not the only one constantly worrying about Henry. \u00a0Henry called me, where are you mom? \u00a0He sounded hoarse and really upset. \u00a0I calming told him we were on our way. \u00a0I text him along the way telling him how close we were. \u00a0When we got to the parking lot I saw his wonderful group of friends standing to the side, Henry was with a police officer. \u00a0He immediately headed my way and we met in the middle. \u00a0He actually hugged me and let me hold him as long as I needed. \u00a0I searched his face and body for injuries, his face looked red. \u00a0This was when he told me that he had been punched in the face. \u00a0I went in for another hug to hide the horror on my face. \u00a0He is so much taller than me and it felt like I was the kid being hugged by a parent.<\/p>\n
I was ready to destroy something. \u00a0I wanted to leave, hunt down that car and do serious damage to the man that hurt my baby. \u00a0Shortly after we got there we were told that the carjacker had caused a major multiple car crash and was in custody. \u00a0They needed Henry to go ID the man. I asked for one of us to go with. \u00a0I nominated Scott knowing full well I would be out of that police car and kicking that guy in the nuts before any officer could stop me. \u00a0Although they did put Scott in the back of the police car so I would not have had the chance with the whole doors lock from the outside thing.<\/p>\n
Henry was calm and mature. \u00a0The police were surprised he was only 16. \u00a0I thanked the 19 year old that had followed the car shortly called the information in to police and went back to be with Henry. \u00a0He was the only one. \u00a0Others drove by Henry in the intersection screaming for help. \u00a0What kind of adults do that? \u00a0Evidently several. \u00a0I am so pissed.<\/p>\n
The officer in charge was a young woman. \u00a0She had a pony tail like Hayley. \u00a0I imagine this is what Hayley would have looked like in her uniform and how kind she also would have been as an officer.<\/p>\n
With the dates looming, how could we have something else crappy happen? \u00a0We are already facing my unemployment ending and taking a low paying part time job. \u00a0Now we have to buy another car with deductibles and you know the insurance company will hose us on the amount even though we have had the car 8 weeks. \u00a0It is never ending. \u00a0My life has been one challenge after another. \u00a0Nothing phases me now because nothing could be worse than what we faced this month a year ago. \u00a0But the fact that someone tried to hurt my baby and all of the “what could have happen”, I am just so done.<\/p>\n
I am in bed, xanax on board, dogs all in the room listening to the fireworks going off. \u00a0Not one of our 4 dogs seem to care about fireworks. \u00a0At least that is a blessing. \u00a0I have a 16 year old shaken up, it could be worse if I had four dogs freaking out about fireworks. \u00a0So there that is as close to glass half full I am going to get.<\/p>\n
I am ready for good things to happen. \u00a0Maybe I won’t recognize them. \u00a0Maybe I won’t smile, but for f&%k sake give me a damn break.<\/p>\n
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Tonight I thought my life might be over. \u00a0It was a brief moment in time. \u00a0I am trying not to be a drama queen but Henry is my reason for going on and living with the excruciating pain of losing Hayley. \u00a0I had just said to Scott, Henry is out, I am owning the fact … <\/p>\n